曾把你 緊緊抱著 緊緊依賴著 緊緊地愛著
i thought it would be good. but i never got rid of the doubts. he pushed me for many things. i pushed him for my share. not a healthy relationship. less and less connectedness. so we are here. again. like we only just met. and we are only the most normal kind of friends.
we will miss the memories, and that’s it. we move on. we learn, hopefully the full lesson.
i feel on the verge of tears and i listen to songs that speak to my situation, which makes me cry more. but i think that’s good. get it out of my system. the feelings. of regret, of the disappointment. of the loss of something precious. of the loss of hope, of the mistakes.
it’s ok. i can get through this. this is what i need. be strong, my dear.