began with pervasive low moods, confusion, sense of weakness
then trying to make people happy by dancing in the streets
then becoming disillusioned with that again
applying and studying for the postgrad cert
finally quitting the job
doubting self again
feeling asocial, disconnected with friends and unmotivated to reconnect
angry with self, afraid to make decisions.
finding Mr A, but i don’t want him to be only an anesthesia from the rest of my life. i want him to be part of my happy life.
staying calm even when my m is coming out, before doing a good SCID
what good is worrying? just do what you can and you won’t need to regret. keep calm (clear-headed). keep going!
love myself and be a little bit better to myself with less self-criticisms, less self-harming through constant comparisons, less rumination
more sports, laughter, books, hugs and kisses
in the end, it doesn’t matter whether you succeed or not, it’s the process.